Bring me Imbolc

Imbolc is a fire festival that celebrates the first signs of spring. Its name means “in the belly”, referring to the life growing beneath the earth. This is a time of new beginnings and setting your goals for the year. Therefore it is an optimum time of cleansing and purification. One way to incorporate this is a cleansing bath. Use a sea salt scrub to not only scrub away old skin but old habits as well. After the bath has been completed smudge yourself with a sage stick. Now you are free to start your new journey. Light a white candle and sit down and write your goals, the everyday, the spiritual and magickal.

Knight’s democracy

This card may represent a young man between the ages of 25 to around 35 who is a water sign (Cancer, Scorpio or Pisces). This card can also represent receiving messages regarding love and emotions. This can come in the form of a phone call, letter, e-mail or through someone else.

Page Crush

This card can either represent someone who is a Piscean, a young person (under 25) or child who is a water sign (Pisces, Cancer or Scorpio). This person is also someone who is free in their imagination, and lives the life that they choose. But this is not someone who lives with their head in the clouds, they have their feet firmly on the ground as well. The card’s representation could appear as a person around you, an event that you will experience, or a part of you which you need to manifest.

Ten of cups feelings

This is another nice card to see in a reading. This card corresponds to the major arcana card of the wheel of fortune. This in combination with the meaning of the cups can represent the feeling that the person has ‘got lucky’ in issues to do with love and emotions. This is the time of cycles completed, journey’s endings and lives lived with those you love. The air is filled with serenity and peace, a time to forget all the material problems in the world. All that is important now is eternal happiness after a long hard struggle.

Did you miss nine of cups?

This is a lucky card to see in a reading. This card usually means that the person will be able to get what they want from the situation and will experience happiness emotionally as a result. This card corresponds to the major arcana card of the Hermit. This card represents emotional bonds, strengthening of romantic bonds, friendships and the consummation of sexual relationships. At this point, joy and happiness is within your grasp. This is the time to feel all emotions as if you have never felt them before. Take time to appreciate all those you love in your life. See the perfection of the world around you. Physically this card represents delight and pleasures. Worries are now in the past and the time to secure your future. However, this card does come with a warning. Enjoy life and living but don’t take it too far as pleasures without regard have dire consequences.

Dark soul of a Gothic Doll

Here is a poem to mark my glorious return. Enjoy.

Siren of the new world,
Her kiss is vampire’s grin.
Doll faced, deep as an ocean.
In bloom, posed to sin.

Purgatory guardian laments,
Touchdown with the drying rain.
Chess queen, fever dog.
Pale enchantress, full of pain.

Do not enter the fairy trail.
I miss you my puppet master.
Pumpkin Queen, Lady Absinthe.
Tortured soul burning faster.

Hero, my lost puppet master.
I dare you, as it is the season.
After the flame dies away.
I hope you remain my reason.

Save the return for me

Hi. I am sorry that I have been away for so long. Life really got in the way. At the beginning of the year I moved into a property that had no internet access. The intention to do the post when I was around my boyfriend’s got pushed aside amongst all the other stuff I needed to do online. While I am still in that property in the next month my boyfriend and I are hoping to move in together and I decided that I need to get back into blogging.

Yes, I am truly in love with my amazing boyfriend who is the totally yin to my neurotic yang. It has been a learning curve for both of us but the most important part is that we have been there to help and support each other and that is something that I am not use to. Giving my love to someone and getting it return to me in balance to what I am giving.

I am working now in a call centre and although it is not the most challenging job in the world. I have met some delightful people. And I have had a book of my poetry published and I am currently trying to get a novel published. Although that will have to take a back seat until the move. And I am still following my pagan path. It may not be regular to begin with I am hoping to get into back into all aspect of the blogging. And if you are interested in the book here is a link: http://www.blurb.co.uk/b/4790151-the-flowering-of-the-black-petal

Paint it eight of cups

The eight of cups is a sign of emotional stagnation. This happens when the flow of energy or love suddenly stops and you are waiting for it to return. However, waiting is not a good thing for you to be doing, as you will not be going nowhere, you are going to have to move yourself. The eight of cups therefore symbolises walking away from a difficult situation. As cups are linked to emotions, then it would probably be a relationship that you are giving too much to and not getting nowhere near as much back. One sided relationships cause nothing but pain, so when the eight of cups appears in a reading, it is a slap across the face that can not be ignored.

Come seven of cups

The seven of cups tends to appear when there is a difficult decision to make. It is the time of strange and wonderful gifts, however some of these gifts have a sting to them. Lying amongst the glittering gifts, is a snake and dragon. This means that sometimes you have many options, all of which are good within your reach, only one of which is the right one. Sometimes they are the delusions of imagination and there are no options at all. This shows choice and plans that may not be rooted in reality, which is fine if they remain in fantasy. If you try to root these ideas in reality, you will only be left disappointed. The idea will have no foundations and will fall at the first hurdle. In the odd cases it might start to get going, but the fall will still happen. There is also the element of temptation within these choices, as the serpent of jealousy is amongst the options. As it is the cups, this temptation is of a sexual nature, one night stands or extramarital affairs, something at the time seems pleasurable but the consequences are life altering.

The Strong cry!

At the beginning of a new year, I am reminded about my strength and that I am a stronger person than I think I am. Is that actually true? I have survived one of the toughest years in my life and the rewards for that are immense. However, that is all I have done is survived. I am not strong. I just refused to die. Some may even suggest that I have blossomed this year, finding both love and having my poetry published. But I am normal, not special and certainly not strong. I am still battling the demons of depression and still cry when I feel I can no longer go on. I am getting better at looking at myself, and I see an normal person looking back, not the fat ugly beast that I once did see, but a woman, plain and normal sized but I know that as the year goes by, the belief in myself will grow. I would also like to report that it has been just over three months since I last self harmed. I doubt I will ever look at myself and think there is a beautiful, sexy and desired woman, but I will see myself as someone that deserves the love that I do get. I am about to go through the door into my new life, with a job, love, a place to call my own and something resembling a literary career. I will counter-argue that I am not strong, but I am no coward either.